(TRIGGER WARNING) Distraction Tactics, Therapeutic Pattern Hoarding + Hair Extensions!

***TRIGGER WARNING***

This post discusses content that may be triggering (bulimia, depression, ect.) Proceed with caution. 

Lately I have come to realize that my recovery is definitely an up and down road, with a few u-turns and detours.

This is to be expected and it is not a reason to give up completely, but there are some coping tactics that have worked for me in the past few weeks.  Here is an completely honest list of distraction tactics that I have been using – this does not mean that they are all good…just what I have been doing to either fight the urge to binge eat or purge after a meal or a binge session.

  1.  Smoking. This is the one that has made me the most angry. I was doing so well since February when I had last quit. It has only been a couple of cigarettes so far and I plan to keep it that way. Then back on the wagon I go!
  2. Driving.  Now before I started therapy driving was a big trigger because I would binge eat fast food like nobody’s business. I’m talking $30-$40 each binge and that’s on a good day. However, now I’ve found a couple country roads that I frequently head to when I need to clear my head, crank up my music, and remember that nothing is the end of the world.
  3. Talking.  There was a good 10 years where I didn’t tell anyone about my depression or bulimia. I decided that I was tired of hiding something that had such a huge hold on my life. I was never going to be completely free to live my life fully if I didn’t get help. Opening up about how I’m feeling or when I’m struggling has been one of the best choices I have ever made and I thank those who have listened along the way.
  4. COFFEE & TEA. When I’m feeling my depression creeping in, a good cup of coffee or tea can make all the difference – in addition to my antidepressants of course.
  5. Yoga.  My mother in law is a yoga instructor and she has been coming over on Thursdays and giving us yoga lessons in the morning. It has been so wonderful and has really tested my belief in what I could and couldn’t do.
  6. Knitting and Crocheting.  I have been knitting for 3 years and crocheting for almost 20 years. I love looking at beautifully soft and squiddgy yarn in the fancy local yarn shops, but my budget is definitely not made for the high end stuff 😉
  7. PATTERN HOARDING. This is directly connected to #6, but it doesn’t mean that I make every pattern that I hoard. In fact, my pattern que on Ravelry is so long I will never make it to the end.  Everyone in my life has a tag with at least 10 patterns assigned to them that have the possibility of being knit or crocheted, but there is no guarantee.

I hope to get some of these done before winter:

Kayla Dyches’ Pearl Clutcher: Magnum

Photo: The Yarn Bearer on Flickr

Wild Flower by DROPS Designs

Photo: DROPS Designs

Julie King’s Mountains Cowl

Photo: Gleeful Things

Susan Carlson’s Happy Harlequin Blanket

Photo: Felted Button


On another note: I have more recently cut my hair after years of having grown in out for our wedding in 2013.  This was a little traumatic, but I really do enjoy having short hair. It feels healthier and now I can start growing it out again. However, I have been itching to do the hair styles I have been doing for years and I miss the versatility of my long hair.

My husband offered to let me get clip in extensions that I had looked up online as a birthday/Christmas/Valentine’s Day gift because they are pretty expensive. I’m usually pretty cool not using things like fake eye lashes, nails, ect, but I like to pay extra attention to my hair. A lot of it fell out when I had toxic shock syndrome in 2006 (more on that later) and  since then, I have been a little obsessed with trying to get the same volume back that I had before.

I picked out the 220g Mocha Brown Luxy Remy hair extensions and I cannot wait to try them out! Once they come in, I will do an extensive review since I have never used them before. Wish me luck!

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The Time a Gang of Turkeys Plotted to Kill Me & a Duh Craft

I am not the healthiest person, so I am trying to take regular walks and possibly jogs to break up my work from home/online class routine. Constant sitting makes for a bad back and a jumbled mind!

Anyway.

I was on my walk around our neighborhood, listening to my tunes and enjoying the sunshine when I came across a group of turkeys. Now, birds don’t usually scare me but there was something about these turkeys. Their shifty eyes and shank beaks were unsettling. I always thought turkeys were skittish, so I kept walking thinking they would scatter as I got closer to them on the road.

NOPE.

They started walking towards me like we were in the middle of a community theater production of West Side Story. Then they started to trot. I decided to run across the street and out of the line of turkey fire and they watched me as I jogged past. I’m pretty sure I can’t walk on that road anymore.

What turkeys really look like:

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How I pictured them:

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The rest of the walk was uneventful but that was enough excitement for me.


Once I got home I needed to shake off the turkey jeebies, so I decided to try out a pretty simple craft. I mean this is something ANYONE can do. The end result wasn’t quite what I had pictured, but it wasn’t really a craft fail.  It’s incredibly easy, or what I like to call a “duh” craft.

1. Find wallet in bag after having a small heart attack.

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2. Pick up a floral wreath form, wire cutters and some silk flowers. I was feeling springy and went for pink. Make sure to get enough to cover whatever form you get.  I did not do this.

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3.  Cut flowers leaving a 2 inch stem or smaller if your form is thinner than mine. You can leave the greenery on if you want but I chose not to.

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4. Shove those puppies into the foam. Also remove cat from table.

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5. Realize that you did not buy enough flowers. The sides were still green from the foam and if I want to hang it on the wall, I want the sides covered too. Still looks great to me, but I need MOAR.

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6. I added flowers I had leftover from our wedding centerpieces. I don’t know if the colors go well, but it allows me to make believe that the snow has melted and birds weren’t trying to kill me.

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Verdict:

Eh, it works. I’ll keep it!

Anyway, this is long enough for now!

Have a good one,

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PS:

I know the best ways to cheer up my husband.

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Turkey photos courtesy of http://www.gorestruly.com and Tom French of http://www.lakeboon.com  

Just A Little Something

“Why in the hell do we need another craft/diy blog?”

I’m sure that’s what most people will say when they come across this page. I don’t really have an answer other than I hope to bring a different perspective to the world of crafts and do it yourself projects.  I’m really good at some things but horrible at others and I plan on chronicling even the most horrendous, if not hilarious, attempts. 

In addition to the general feeling of accomplishment that comes from finishing a project, I use crafting as a form of therapy as I start my recovery from bulimia. My eating disorder has run my life long enough and when I pick up a ball of yarn and knitting needles or a tin of buttons, my head clears and even for a brief second I feel good about myself. Hopefully I can try and help others living with ED to try something like knitting or sewing. It could end up being a helpful part of their recovery like it has been with mine!

I run an Etsy shop called Mitts Knits while I go to school full time. Here’s a link to my shop. I mostly make jewelry, even though my shop name has “knits” in it. Ha! However, I will soon be listing some spring and summer knits! 

Anyway, this has been a heavy enough first post for now. 

Have a good one!

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